Riding without wheels

There I was standing on the corner of a busy intersection *my life*. All around me was a fast buzz of people and the swift motion of them around me made me tap my feet in nervousness. All I could see is the blur of the things that pass me by. I look around trying to focus but too much was happening around me that I couldn't focus on any one thing. The intensity of the mass motion about me changed my mood from calm, cool and collective to outrageously confused in what direction I was traveling.

THEN I realized, this is My world, I must take hold. I must hold to my heart for it is mine and not meant to be carelessly given away. I must hold to my mood, because it is MY mood and should always be the most cheerful and giving. I must hold my temper, because again its mine and if I can't hold onto it then who shall? I am in control of ME and can't let the ideas, moods, and inabilities of others frustrate me or affect/effect who I am and how I greet the world.

So? I decided...
~Be rude to me if you like...I'm going to be nice.
~Get angry if you wish...I'm going to be calm.
~ Forget me or forget me not...I'll never forget you.
~I forgive you...No matter what you have said or done to me.

I'm going to be rational when rationality calls and irrational every chance I get. I'm going to live free and die fighting. I'm going to walk thru this life guns a blazing and pushing myself as far as and as hard as I can. I'm going to experience every breath of life to the fullest without letting YOU hold me back or hold me down. Most importantly I'm going to live. I'm not going to keep standing on that corner watching as the world blows by me. I'm going to take hold on the buzz around me. Disguarding the unnecessary things that add no positive character to my life. I'm going to set free some things that I have been holding onto. I'm goign to start being fair to myself as its about time. I'm going to be ME, instead of what YOU think I should be.

I refuse to fit in your box with your other small ideas. I refuse to let you disturb or manipulate who I am anymore. I'm setting myself free from the stumbling block that you have been to me far too long. You will not win against me anymore, I'm stronger now. Where my fear once held me down, I'm courageous now.

Life come at me all you want, I won't be defeated and even if you knock me down. I won't give up again. I'm in control of ME.

Are you in control of you?