Living a Short Life

Honestly, I dont kno if more than a handful of people read my blog anymore. I hope that it still reaches out to that one lost/hurting soul that just needs a push in the right direction. My life is a testimony of the grace of God as yours is. I hope that each time I write my testimony touches your heart and leaves you feeling a sense of belonging.

We are all strangers in this land. Strangers to this life. Some of us are more odd than others. While some of us have purposes that reach beyond our own imagination. Some fight to live and some beg to die. Some of us strive to be the same, while the rest of us strive to be different. We live this life in motion. Always moving forward towards the next day the next moment and the next milestone in our life.

We face struggles of epic proportion sometimes. We fight monsters bigger than us and win battles we never thought we could. It is there by the grace of God that we are granted his strength to push thru.

Sometimes we feel like we are standing without motion, as life briskly passes us by. We don't think we'll make it one more day, yet somehow the morning still comes. Sometimes we feel like we want to hold on to a moment forever, but the moment quickly becomes just a memory. It is our memories that keep us in the lonely times. It is our sweet memories that hold our hearts when we want to cry. It is our memories that cause to strive harder, push farther, and sometimes its our memories that hurt us the most.

We are all strangers on this land as I said before. Just wandering souls waiting for the end of life so our souls can go to a place far beyond this one. Our lives are like vapors, so short in the grand aspect of things. We can't live from generation to generations hundreds of years, we only exist for such a short time. This life we are given, while so short as its often said, is truly a gift. Even when we fight to live most of our lives, its a gift because we are stronger with each new fight and each new mountain to climb.

We must cherish and adore each moment we live, forgetting the bad, holding on to the sweet. For we know not which moment life shall whisk us away or at which moment those we love most dearly shall stand beyond our reach. Even then our souls feel tortured by the absense that was once filled, but the hope is one day we again will be with the one that we love.

This life is so short, so delicate and so difficult, but we must enjoy each beautiful moment we have. For we are not promised one more moment. I want to look at my life at the end and say, "wow, I had a beautiful life". We must forgive those that hurt us, look past the difficult and see the beautiful. Dwell not on the past but look with hope to the moment we are in. Every moment is so beautiful and we can not in this life let even one moment pass us by. For if a moment slips thru our hands, we'll never get it back again.

Enjoy life...forgive, forget and move on. Love like you never hurt, dance like no one can see, live with all ur might, and dont forget to sing. Thanks for reading :)

Love defined

We desperately search all our lives for something. Some search for fame, others fortune, and of course there are those of us that desperately search for our one true love. Some would say it is believed that true love is only a chemistry match. Other believe that true love is simply a match of two people who share some common grounds that spend a certain amount of time together and are found compatible. Some doubt the existance of real love, true love, or any love at all. Yet somewhere they have a small hope that one day love will brush by them and captivate them completely.

Love has no boundaries. No lines, no rules, no preducies, and no limits. It's the one thing in life (outside of God) that has no limitations except as far as one allows. You can not love someone unless you allow yourself. Sometimes we don't allow others to love us and they do. Sometimes we are fortunate and many love us or perhaps more fortunate to find only one person that truly loves us. Either way love is what our lives hunger for even if we hate to admit it.

There are 3 loves in life that have no definition. That truly can not be defined by any amount of words that are labled on any page of any book in any time since the beginning til the end of time. True love, Mother's love, and God's Love . These three loves are unconditional and without waiver. True love is the most rare. God's love is existant even if we dont love him back. God loves us no matter what we do or don't do, how we live or don't live...no matter what God loves us.

THEN Mother's love... a true mother, loves her child no matter what that child does. No matter what that child becomes a real mother loves and supports that child thru all their lives and all their decisions. (It seems that in this day and time of life...this kind of love is becoming sooo rare.) THEN last there's TRUE LOVE. Something we grow up as children thinking and dreaming about. Even as young as our imaginations develop we hunger and hope and search for true love. But so many people don't find that true love as soon as they hope so they give up hope, believe or search for. OR perhaps they are like me.. Some people truly search for it all their lives. Hunger for it. CRAVE it like someone craves their favorite snack. Anxiously looking from side to side from face to face and one day grows tired of looking.

In this life, I have learned 2 things. 1 - Put God first and he will give you the desires of your heart. Even his word tells us this - Seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you. and 2 - True love is real.

Since a child I've despearately longed to be Cinderella. To find the man of my dreams waiting for me as I did for him. I searched and searched and only found a handful of brokenness and a broken heart. I one day put aside the hope of true love and settled for the next best thing (or so I thought) comfortable love. Sadly even this leads to the same place. Then thru so much heart ache I learned that no one can love us like God loves us and once we accept God as our love. We can find that human love that we so desperately long for.

Maybe I'm rushing (which is something I'm quite known for) and maybe I'm not. But for the first time I believe that I am loved in the exact way I always wanted to be loved. Sometimes the words aren't there, but they are not necessary. Things we never thought we'd see, we do. Things we never thought we feel, exist. After all that dreaming we did for so long, it seems perfectly worthwhile. Something so beautiful does exist. Beyond this life I kno there is that someone who loves me in the way that I need.

This by no means discredits anyone who loves another with all of their might. Nor does it make their love less valuable or meaningful. But truly it is so rare to find a love that loves you in the way that you need to be loved.

With love comes heartache and with heart ache comes love. One thing that is for sure a bird can not be with a fish it is said. For a fish belongs in the sea and the bird in the air. But for 2 to be together, a fish must find a fish and a bird a bird. I hope my dearest friend(s), that you find that fish that is looking for you.Someone that knows which way you like to swim and understands your needs. Someone that holds your hand and gives you everything. I believe I have found a bird that knows my call. He knows which way I fly without telling him and he knows which song to sing. Though the story is sad but true no matter what in the end a bird must fly and a fish must swim and they can not exist in the same place. Out there somewhere is your fish waiting so desperately for you.